Okay, there have been few people in my life lately who really understand what I am going through. They are accepting me for the person I need to be right now. I'm sorry that that person is not what people want, and I'm sorry that I will never again be the person that everyone knew. But I get up every day and fucking deal with it, so why can't you? I know that life isn't easy for anyone, and that every person is going to go through their own hell. I am so aware of living in a personal hell. So I am doing whatever I can to make myself happy. Please just let me be happy. My life is irreversibly fucked up, so just let me have what I need to get by. I want all of this shit to end.