Dreams

This is one of my new favorite dreams that I had:

I am driving around with my mom in the car, and we get back to the house. I lay on the couch after eating our lunch. My mom starts talking about a new sandwich she has heard about. Which apparently has happened too many times, and I snap, spurting out this monologue: "No! I've had it, we just had a sandwich. You always have some new sandwich we have to try. I mean, we just got back from trying some new sandwich, and somehow you've already heard about another new sandwich in the five minutes it took us to get home?! I've had it! I'm not eating anymore sandwiches!" Which is quickly followed by my mom saying, "Just let me tell you about it, it has..."

Then I woke up.

I thought those of you who read my blog and know me would get a giggle from this. Soooo Merry Christmas! Happy Holidays! I hope this made you smile!

Downer

I'm starting to get homesick, and it is worse that Jo, Steve, Garry, and Maggie are going home tonight. There wouldn't be room in the car for me and I can't miss classes, but I'm jealous. If I didn't have to get up at 8am, I would have a glass of wine at least to make me feel a little better. Yeah yeah, that would be drinking to solve a problem. But it would also be delicious.

Anyway, I'm ready to go home and be with my family. I want my kitty curled up on my lap with a warm blanket, and a cup of cocoa.

I will hold it together until Wednesday morning though.


Enjoy your break all of my darling friends!

Cleaning is making my life better

Things I have been lately:
-A bad roommate
-A bad friend
-busy
-whiny
-insignificant feeling
-overwhelmed
-tired
-mildly ill feeling
-harassed by my mom
-stressed
-emotional

I plan on working on these things. I'm sorry if they have affected you in anyway, and I hope that I can make it up to you.

Why is life so fabulous?!

I have realized today that although things aren't always fair, and although I may get irritated at times, I am living a rather fabulous life right now. I am getting the chance to stage manage for Rachel who I've always wanted to know better. And I'm finally feeling like with this I'm carving out my own niche in the theater department. I'm excited about this, because that means my minor is not a total waste lol. Also, I have someone in my life who makes me feel like I'm amazing just because I'm me. I don't know entirely what I've done in my life to be here, but it is a good feeling. A great contrast from last year. And even though I am swamped and have a ton of things to get accomplished for this week, I am smiling.

Also: instant esteem boost, dress really cute and fucking own it. (Even if the outfit makes you look like you could be the president of the Philippines)

I hope you all are having a wonderful day! =)

Clarification on why yesterday was the single greatest day in the history of days. Although it won't sound like it's the best day, even though it totally was!

Facts of the best day:
- I wore a Burger King crown
- The floor was lava/quick sand
- Sonic
- Jinx
- Dollar Tree: fabulous fabulous gifts and grab bags
- Catch

Wow, in a list it sounds absolutely absurd, but you have to understand that it was the most amazing day I've ever had in my 20 years of living.

Epic Weekend

This has been the most amazing weekend...

And this day has been the best day of my life.

Frustration!!!

HATE:
- Agricultural science classes
- Bugs
- Lack of alone time
- tea in replacement of soda
- ANTS
- miss understandings


The End.

No Title

"I don't know at all what to think of the world. Maybe that's the point. You live in it because you don't understand it, and the whole time you're just trying to figure it out. At least figure something out, anything out actually. Do you think that's what love really is? Two people mutually deciding that they are tired of trying to figure it all out on their own. But there's more to it, there's feelings and moments that change you, as though you've never been awake before. Would you doubt what was between you when one of you were gone? Would you have said what you wanted to say? Would you have done everything you wanted to do? Or would you have hold back, waiting for a better moment, or that there will always be more moments. There is a series of continual moments that I've let pass by. What if there's never another moment? Then what?"

Monday ruins my week

Waking up to a really gray day with pouring rain, and knowing I have to walk to campus and back puts me in an automatic bad mood. It's cold. It's wet. It's miserable. It makes me hate that it is gross out today but will be sunny tomorrow in time for Ag. Sci. lab.

I'm starting to get anti-social and stressed already...and my awful Ag. Sci. / African American Lit. classes are the problem. I do not want to try and decipher a massive science article and summarize it in two pages. I do not want to finish the book "Roots". I would really like to climb into bed, pull the covers over my head and take a nap. Sadly, this is not an option.

I'm excited about the Midsummer call backs though, that's pretty sweet! Other than that, I could use a little sunshine in my life right now.

This update to appease Jason Qualls whom I adore

So needless to say, I am loving being back in Kirksville and my freaking adorable apartment that I get to live in. I'm also a big fan of my roommate and neighbors. And clearly I am a big fan of all of my friends because last night was sooooo much fun. Decision: I need to play pogs with Bregs and spend every night with drunk Kelly! I'm not entirely sure how one evening could go from tense to epic, but what an accomplishment.

I'm so glad it's only Wednesday so that more events such as this can occur! Although perhaps not in our apartment when Steve is trying to sleep cause that had to suck for him. Another ideal change would be the boxes not being spread all over my floor...cause those things are easy to trip on late at night in the dark when you are lacking certain amounts of sobriety.

Looking forward to choices, since I get to see slut Joanna...again. I sincerely hope she is not permanently type-cast as a whore, shes too darn cute for that.

Well it is too early to continue posting, so enjoy this update blog stalkers and know that I love you.

Captain's Blog: 7/23

I am on empty. My battery is a little on the low side, and although I'm pretty sure that they are trying to make me feel a little guilty about not going to bear lake, I'm happy to be sitting and doing nothing. I have hit a wall, and hopefully will be rejuvenated in time to go back downtown this afternoon.

I also needed a break from the little girls, because hearing "Hey Molly, Hey Molly, Hey Molly" all the time is getting a little tiring.

The captain is frazzled, and on the look out for bears. =(

Captain's Blog: 7/20

There are a few things that I have realized thus far on this trip:
1. I am apparently being used as cheap babysitting for part of this trip. This has lead me to re-think my idea of having four children. It has become slightly overwhelming. Also these same children that I am watching are now telling me that "I stink" at games they are given an advantage at because they are 8 and 4! Frustration.
2. I am blending my personality with that of my family to try and feel less like an outcast, but I'm not sure I want to pick up those traits.

5 more days to go...

Captain's Blog: 7/19 - part 2

We have arrived in Colorado to a beautiful cabin. It is heavenly. It will be more heavenly when I can crawl into the hot tub of an evening with a spiked beverage. Just one of the many plans for this voyage.

Family moral is still high, although complaining is already taking place about certain family members. The room situation was resolved though, and with ease.

Only a few disasters so far in this adventure: moms car stopped running part of the way up the mountain where we had quite a time trying to figure out why the heck it stopped. It was a frightening experience. It seems to be running fine now. Also when on a trip to the grocery store my aunt locked her keys in the trunk and required rescue. This stranded four family members and required two to get them unstuck.

Everything else is amazing. Serious consideration is being made about moving here after college. Certification for the state of Colorado in the department of Education cannot be too difficult. It would probably be easier than getting use to the lack of oxygen in this state. Downside to move would be driving through Kansas to see family...I have developed a serious dislike of Kansas.

Captain's Blog: 7/19

I find Kansas to be a miserable state. It is unGodly long and I swear it will never end. Thankfully this is the last day of mass driving and by the end of this day I will be in a Colorado cabin. This will only happen if I can manage to get out of the frickin state of Kansas.

Family affairs appear to be alright for now. I am concerned for the two hours in the car with my aunt Liz because I am pretty confident that I will lose it if I have to stop at an antique mall rather than continue to blaze the trail to Colorado. I am German and unscheduled stops make me uneasy.

If I hear one more comment about how awesome The Dark Knight is I might cry. I couldn't even find a movie theater in this dumb Kansas town, so now I have to find a way to sneak off and see it in Colorado without getting some stupid lecture about how I could do that anytime at home.

I know this post may seem a little bitter, but I am actually looking forward to being in the mountains. I'm very excited about it in fact, but I need to get through all this driving through flatlands over with first. Plus this trip came at the most inconvenient time for my social life. Go figure.

I will blog again! Until then best wishes from Colby Kansas.
-The Captain

Uneventful

Emma's party was absolutely amazing as it always is. A total blast, I love getting to spend time with those guys. Plus, who doesn't love a good time on a playground?!

I feel as though I've been running around like a crazy person for most of this month. But for feeling that way I cant really recall what I've been doing. Finishing stats was pretty damn exciting! I also just kept thinking that we would leave for Colorado shortly after stats was over, but now that stats is actually over I am not yet prepared to leave. I know that I will love it and have fun (which is what everyone keeps telling me) but I can't help but think about all the things/people I'll be missing. Like Maggie's Birthday and The Dark Knight premier! In all honesty as pathetic as it may seem I will probably shed a few tears on my vacation due to how sad I am that I'm missing things. Plus after five days my family will probably make me nuts lol.

For those of you who would want to be get in touch with me while I am gone, I will have ZERO cell phone reception. I should have internet though, and I will be taking the laptop so facebook or e-mail are your ways of reaching me.

If you're reading this, I love you! =)

Let me tell you how great my life is

My FABULOUS weekend!:
Friday: The fourth! I spent it in the traditional fashion with my family and their friends and the Hartman's. It was a total blast, and the best part was probably walking home slightly intoxicated with my mom and then continuing the party by listening to "I love the 80's". We danced to "Girls Just Wanna have Fun" and thought about how awful we would feel the next day. It was fantastic!
Saturday: I had an unplanned lunch with Kyle which was great. Kyle always tells me when I'm being crazy and he for some reason keeps me sane. Plus we always have the best lunch of things like licorice, cheez-its, frozen pizza, and pineapple. This of course just led to my evening with Alan, which without being too mushy, was one of the best dates I've ever had in my life.
Sunday: I had a mom-date day where we bought new shoes, had a great lunch, saw a movie, and then ate a large amount of pasta and cheesecake. It was another great date.

Then my weekend continued into one pretty great week:
Monday: Joe, Becca, and I actually went to class. Afterwards we got a delicious Mexican lunch, then went to Joe's and did our homework. Then we played with Joe's dog Boomer (my new best friend!), played pool, and then I kicked their butts in Wii bowling. I spent the afternoon and evening with my daddy eating lots of food and catching up on Lost. SPLENDID!

Now I'm waiting for 5:30 so I can go party for Emma's 21st Birthday!

Emotastic, apologies.

I thought my car breaking down would result mostly in sympathy for how much this week will suck since I have to hobo my way to class/work, and congratulations in how well I handled the situation considering I have zero prep. in that department.
However, as usual something miserable for me is made into a giant suck-fest by the unsolvable hate between my parents. I'm not entirely sure what it is about bad situations for me that fuels this undying battle between them, but this would be no exception. This is the point where my dad is being unhelpful mostly because he is trying to punish me for not seeing him as often as I should, and my mom is pissed because my dad is being lame. And naturally this always progresses into me learning something fun and twisted about their failed marriage, leading into my questioning my worthwhile existence. These two people should never have been allowed to reproduce with one another.
In my spare time from that little inner monologue I'm trying to find rides.
I am not nice right now, and my desire to be nice is zero.
I need a hug.

Absolutely I do

First thing is first, I re-read some old blog posts, and have decided some things need to be redacted. Mainly my comment about my stats friends because I adore them now and have a blast in that class with them. I think I was in an off mood that day, anyway...long story short, stats friends = good.

On a much more eccentric note I felt a lot like Jim Halpert today. I had a momentary lapse of judgment yesterday and agreed to have someone come out and give an estimate on replacing all of the windows. Yes, I agreed to have someone give an estimate on the house that I do not own, and have no legal claim over. This happened because I believe somehow that this would get me back to watching Star Wars faster. So today rolls around my estimate time is set up for one, and the guy is here at one on the dot. The estimate begins, he measures all the windows in the house, and as he does so he asks me questions like, "how long have you owned the house?", "Do you live alone?", "how long have you been looking to replace these windows?". Now, I decided the best plan of action is to create an elaborate lie that builds off of me being the owner of this house that I've owned for 6 years. So the measuring is done and we are at the part of the presentation where this man talks for half an hour about his company and the windows. Let me tell ya, I can give you mass amounts of information on these windows. MASS AMOUNTS. During his half hour presentation I have completely accepted my role as homeowner and being to act in such a manner by doing the following things:
- I claimed that I wasn't sure I could part with the picture window because it just went so lovely with the boxwoods I planted
- I inquired about how the nylon screen would hold up with a cat in the house
- I gushed over how sublime it would be to no longer have to clean the windows from the outside
As this man leaves I have an estimate giving me a summer sales discount, and a discount for educators (since I'm obviously a teacher at a daycare, at least I am in the world where I have owned this house for 6 years) plus a lovely brochure. He was here for an hour, and I have to believe in my heart of hearts that he did not buy my story about owning this house. However, if he did it is safe to assume that I am a really good actress or a pathological liar.

I sincerely hope this story has entertained you.

A List

Things that I have hated about this day:
- almost getting clobbered by a giant SUV on my way to class
- getting yelled at by my professor for like 5 minutes
- hitting the curb while parking and hearing that awful crunch sound
- not having AC
- being a lame girlfriend
- having my mom tell me that my boyfriends reaction to not seeing me was probably "relieved"
- realizing that I may not be able to go to Maggie's birthday
- a chocolate melting in my purse all over my stuff
- locking my keys in my car
- someone taking my parking spot right in front of my house

Things that made this day bearable:
- complaining to Zach
- AC getting fixed
- X-Men the animated series with Kyle, Jen, and Kate

The con list wins this round.

I would crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head if it wasn't obnoxiously hot! =(

The End.

Molly's day of Krista!

I talked to Krista on the phone for a long time today, and I have currently reached the point of slap happiness with our facebook chat conversation. It makes me miss her lots and really miss friend mixers. I think I speak for Krista as well when I say that we want friend mixers back, and air conditioning!

There really is nothing else worth blogging about. Well nothing else that you all don't already know about.

I'm going to try and sleep in this God awful heat. =/ But first:

LOVE:
- My taste in movies =)
- Krista being a creeper
- Unimportant texts to Joanna
- Being momo lol

If your body matches what your eyes can do

so I feel like a jerk cause I've been so out of touch with everyone lately. Like I have no idea what is up with Emily, Krista, Kim, Kelly, and I had to hang up on Joanna due to inappropriate language lol. I suppose I haven't been that busy, but it feels like it with school, work, and a social life. It's hard to balance.

So I guess the point of this sweet blog entry is that I'm sorry for being pretty space cadet lately. It is not intentional, it is due to my lack of organizational skills. Rest assured that I think you are adorable, and hate not talking to you.

The lyrics that are my title are from that song on the radio that is somehow always playing when I'm on my way home from school. School is going fine except for I hate all the effort involved in it, it makes me feel like I have little summer, and I'm bored with my stats friends. Which seems mean, but I don't really know what else to say. They are really nice but I feel like I have little to say to them. They are really concerned with appearing cool and old. I dunno, it's hard to explain.

I have nothing else to say! I might go get a pineapple shake to help me hate statistics homework less...no one should have homework in June.

RED MEANS STOP!

I just watched, repeating to myself "she thinks that it's farther back". I was powerless though, helpless to utter any sound or make any gesture that might stop the inevitable destruction. So I just watched. Watched, in slow motion, as my mother's brand new shiny Barcelona red Toyota sport glided gracefully right into my unsuspecting fire engine red hubcap lacking baby. And then there was the dreaded crunch, followed immediately by the classic looks of shock. It had happened, both of our first accidents with our new cars, simultaneously.

Barcelona Red Damage: 3 dings
Fire Engine Red Damage: 0

Something Clever

So this week has been extremely busy, and I will start this blog by breaking it down.
Mon: Yard work all day
Tues: License
Weds: Dinner with Jo and Steve
Thurs: My entire life fell apart briefly, but was fixed by 5pm. And I hip hop danced with Jo and Val. Plus talking to Alan till an ungodly time of the morning.
Fri: RP Party, smashing success.
Sat: I did F'ing nothing because I was exhausted and needed sleep for my poor brain. Although I did talk to Emily thank God, my head was at the point of explosion.

Uhm, I really have very little to write now, for some reason this evening I've been fighting this unbelievably strong feeling of sad. It's tragic and unexplainable. I'm thinking the best solution may be to go to bed and start fresh tomorrow.
To my loyal readers (stalkers, this means you): Sorry this particular entry is lame. I do solemnly swear to do better next time.

Cloverfield

Okay so not to influence anyone’s opinion of this movie, but I feel the need to vent. So I have heard really good things about this movie, and the first time I tried to watch it I couldn’t because the camera work was making me insane, and slightly sick. I really wanted to see it though so I deal with the camera crap and sit down to watch it. Some parts of this movie are very J.J. Abrams, but I am also kinda disappointed in him. The movie was creative, but over all I’m not too impressed, and I’m slightly disgruntled that I’m not impressed. I expected more from you J.J. Although I was use to having no F’ing clue what was going on, I was aggravated by it. In my personal opinion the movie didn’t live up to the hype that was created for it. Sad sauce.

However, you should of course judge for yourself.

I'm pirating wireless internet while sitting in my bathtub

That is true. My home internet won't work for some reason, probably due to the storm. So now I'm sitting in my bathtub pirating the internet from some folks who live one street over. A big thanks to them!

So I'm not entirely sure what has happened since the last time I posted. So I will just write some random things that have happened.

1. My "A" key is sticking, which is really obnoxious. I also never realized how often I use that damn key, until now of course when it is acting goofy. Ugh.
2. Work on Friday was really chaotic, and therefore I am rethinking my four kids plan. I know, I know, you are probably really happy about this Adam. And for the love of God I do not want seven kids so get that number out of your head! Sorry for that mini rant at Adam.
3. Friday night I had a date night with my mom which was actually a lot of fun. I mean my mom and me typically have a lot of fun together, but this was like pretty sweet. We had a pretty good time today planting. Although, every year I remember planting as being more fun than it actually is...
4. So I got to hang out with Alan on Saturday night, and I have to say that I adore talking with him. I just always really enjoy my conversations with him, no matter what they are about.
5. I created a new delicious drink today! It is mango passion fruit juice, with amaretto liquor, and a little bit of cherry juice. It tastes even better with sour mix in it. Overall, a very delightful drink.
6. I am dying for the sun to come back so that I can wear my new swimsuit! These thunderstorms (although I love them) are starting to bug me.
7. I miss KVille people... =( Seriously, I almost peed my pants with Temple called I was so excited. And convos with Jo are like the best thing ever. I am thrilled for dinner on Wednesday with Steve and Jo so that things will feel kind of KVille normal. Summer is shaping up to be fantastic, but I am also greatly looking forward to next year.

That is all the entertainment I can provide for now!

Glorious Reunion!

This has been one fantastic week thus far!

Monday: Spent some quality time watching a movie with my dad which was fun, and saw the new fancy car he bought. Which is a pretty hot car, so props to him for that. Then that night I had my date with Alan. Fantastic. 'Nuf said.

Tuesday: My first day of work! I have found some of my babies that I had to leave last summer to go back to school. Kenny, Ella, and Carolyn are all in Butterfly room now and they are soooo big! It was actually really amazing to see them again. Plus all of the girls I worked with are still there, and Shelly is pregnant!! She's having a baby girl in a few weeks, which is so thrilling because she really wanted to start her family last summer.

Wednesday: Family reunion!!! By this of course I mean I got to see Kyle and Kate Kloster my sistor! Having them around again is such a wonderful thing. I always have a blast just sitting around with them. We watched some TV and ate an entire pizza in record time, which may have been a mistake, but a delicious mistake. I missed mocking Kyle with Kate, and I missed Kyle hugs. They are like home on some level.

I baked a cake today with caramel frosting, and it is delicious. I felt very Susie Homemaker.
I'm working again Friday in the cuddle bug aka baby room, and am looking forward to it since it is my favorite of the rooms. Although it does mean that i have to learn all new babies, boo.
After a facebook check I'm off to bed. I'm not sure how I get so tired doing nothing, but somehow I do.

"He's old!!"

Krista is the hero of many.

Friend Mixer 3 was a huge success, which means, we are capable of being friends when we aren't in Kirksville. That is good to know. It was a total blast, as usual. I am impressed that we all fit comfortably in my little house, but we did. I think anyway. Kim and I bonded over trying to be less girly, and I'm pretty pumped about that.

I got a car! Now if only I could legally drive it...

I'm currently trying to make one fantastic summer mix cd, so if you have any suggestions, please oh please tell me. Thus far the mood of the cd ranges from "Here it Goes Again" and "Gay Bar" to "Question" and "American Pie". For the record "Question" by Rhett Miller might be my favorite song right now.

Uhm...so 6 hours of sleep was not enough from last night. Goodnight!

Home: Day 3

At times I feel optimistic, and at others I feel like I'm beating my head against a brick wall. <-- if you know what this is in reference to then you should probably say nice things to me.

Fun fact about moving back: my dad lectured me about my grammer on the way home. What?? He is also going to be published, go daddy!

I have successfully turned my book money into cute new clothes. It's like magic. The best kind of magic that there is. However, whilst on my shopping spree with my momma a twighlight zone-esque thing occured. I ran into three ex-boyfriends at places that I frequent. THREE! In one day! There should be a law. It was awkward and I hate the whole "how are things going for you? We should catch up sometime" thing, because it just seems fake. Probably because it is fake, because ex-boyfriends (at least the ones you would refer to as ex-boyfriends and not the ones that you would just refer to as friends) don't want to catch up. Anyway, it just really threw me for a loop. Plus I don't think Jo's sarcastic solution of "Stop dating people" is really going to help me at this point.

If I talk to you on a semi-regular basis, I miss you. But for now, there is a brick wall calling my name.

Another entertaining blog post for Emily Temple

Emily I'm not sure why you are in my last three blog entries, maybe cause I know you read them. But this blog post is not about you, so I shall get down to the fun stuff.

Friend Mixer 2: Could it have been more fun? Correct answer is clearly no. I loved every minute, except for that god awful Trumen weird video about Real guys. Lame. However, more than made up for with Nightmare and getting to shriek at Maggie. =) Apologies again Mags, I had to do what the Gatekeeper told me to! You guys are just lucky Joanna and Garry won before Alan started screaming. Overall, a very very fun and amazing friend mixer. We need to continue these next year, cause I will literally be devastated if I lose you all. This may seem sappy, but I tend to get sappy at the end of the year, I feel really fortunate to have been given the opportunity to get to know all of you from friend mixer. Going to Rachael's St. Pat's party was probably the smartest thing I did all year. I sincerely mean that.

Reading Day: I have decided that I hate economics and the family structure because I do not want to read 30 pages on each. And sociology books shouldn't even be allowed to have a chapter on social change...THAT'S THE POINT OF SOCIOLOGY! On the bright side, I got the best study break ever on my date (?) with Alan. That was an absolutely fantastic time. Damn summer and gray area.

My roommate brought me a muffin...and for some reason that makes me sentimental about leaving WCS 4105 forever. I turn into a big sappy baby at the end of the year. Usually there are ridiculous notes that I write to everyone talking about the year and how much I adore them. So if you get obnoxious facebook messages that are really dorky, and sickeningly sweet...sorry. I kinda do that sometimes. =/

<3 Time for more reading on Gay and Lesbian couples!

Who posts during finals week?

I should really be writing that damn hist and lit paper but I have already taken two finals today, and I cannot make myself read act four, so I am allowing for a small break.

Let's address this weekend, shall we?
Friday: Who isn't happy when Joanna is in all leather? Besides Joanna. In all seriousness though, she was pretty fantastic (no surprise there) and Emily with Rachael was AMAZING! One of the single greatest things I've seen this year. I worship them both. Plus Cherish inspired me to be a whore, which she didn't quite take as the compliment I meant it to be. =)

Saturday: Saturday was honestly one of the best times I've had at Truman this year. It's been pretty hard to re-capture the magic that I felt Freshman year here, but Saturday accomplished that and then some. Final Blowout was a blast, WCS and Ryle pulling together and working as one unstoppable machine. Brilliant. Then Ladies Night?! How lucky am I? I've pretty much rocked out to Bregenzer's mix all week during studying, and I have so much fun getting to be girly with such lovely ladies. Plus we looked pretty hot...you cannot deny that. Everything leads up to one fantastic Banquet! It was a wonderful night and nothing could compare to it. Dancing around for four hours was surprisingly exactly what I needed. And in the end, sorry to all of you who picked the shiny dress, I am glad that I chose my black halter dress.

Banquet gave me some stuff to think about which will have to wait until after finals which is kind of ironic, since once finals are over...it won't matter. lol.

Despite daunting amounts of work, I am in high spirits. I wish the same for all of you. And if you are still reading this...GO STUDY!

Witty Title

HATE:
-Hist and Lit paper. Hate.
-Play Analysis. Hate.
-Spanish Test. Hate.
-Pluperfect?! WTF!??!! HATE.
-Hist and Lit test. Double hate.
-Concerning facebook messages from my cousin. Hate.
-"Make me a Supermodel", seeming unrelated, but hate.

LOVE:
-Emo Lincoln. (long story) Love.
-Emily Temple. Love
-Cherry limeade. Sublove.
-Upcoming Friend Mixer. Love.
-Upcoming Theater Banquet. Love.
-Homemade apple sauce, again, seemingly unrelated, but LOVE.

The End.

Brainfreeze!

I just sat through my last Foundations of Education class, SWEET!

I discovered on Sunday that forgetting your lines in front of an audience is an extremely terrifying experience. Not pleasant.

I can't even begin to think about this week or my head will implode, and here's why!:
-Calc. quiz tomorrow
-Hist and Lit test on Wednesday
-Play analysis, Spanish Test, Hist and Lit paper/presentation on paper on Friday

Only three dashes, but in reality it is hours of sleep I'm not going to get. My solution is to drink this delicious smoothie, eat some hummus, and watch some TV before I crack the whip. Or rather before Joanna gets back from Bondage rehearsal and cracks the whip. She'd hate that reference.

Good luck on hell week everyone!

I have 1/2 a watermelon on my coffee table

True story. I also have a mango on my desk. But that is not the point of this entry!

This past week hasn't been too bad. There have been some things scattered within it that have made it fun. Like Thursday with Alan was a lot of fun. And Half Full on Friday afternoon went really well, and the kids were so excited. It was darling, and unbelievably rewarding to hear them all giggle and want to give us high fives and things. We are lucky we got out of there before Rachel figured out how to smuggle one out.

So we perform again today, and that should be fun. For some reason I am more nervous for this performance than the last one. But whatever.

Friday night was a total blast! Emily has impeccable timing skills. I'm so glad that her and Krista came to see the movie with Steve and me. Java Co. afterwards was a lot of fun, as was watching Krista and Steve FREAK OUT about 1408.

I spent pretty much all of Saturday working on my Education paper, and I have four pages left. I also ate Satan's chalupa apparently, because it made me feel deathly ill. I've never been so sad with Taco Bell in all my life. Or the guy at the coffee shop tampered with my coffee because I didn't remember him from my hometown blockbuster...conspiracy theory, or cold hard fact?

Also Brandon was in town yesterday, and came by to visit!!! I adore him. It was nice to get to talk to him again, and see that he is doing well.

Grilling on Friday was a bad choice, but what am I going to do about it now? Nothing.

This seems like a lot of information, but I've felt pretty busy these past couple days. It's been a lot of GO, GO, GO.

Random note: My dad decided yesterday that he wants to come and move me out this year, and not my mom. Which is fine, it's just my dad hasn't been allowed to help me move in or out since he was a jerk on move in day freshman year. So, hopefully he will be mellow. He should be, he is just a bizzare man.

If anyone is still reading this, HAVE A FANTASTIC DAY! =)

Charlie Wilson's War

this movie is turning out better than I originally thought it would be. I was not so much a fan of I Am Legend, btw.

So, this dizzy fainty feeling hasn't really gone away, but I am considering it nothing to worry about. I am sincerely sorry to anyone that I worried. =/ Twas not my intention.

Tomorrow is shaping up to be a busy day but a fun day.

Showering is going to hurt =(

Something about nice weather causes me to forget that I am, in fact, of German decent! Translation: I am soooo sunburned!!! But, only on one side of my body. I shouldn't have done soc. outside.

Speaking of Soc....it is lame! A 17 page review guide is out of control, especially from a professor who didn't show up for two weeks in a row.

This may be a weird mini-tangent, but why do we even have those quick marriage chapels in Vegas? Does anything good ever come from those? Sorry, just a thought.

I have to go attempt to shower without massive tears. Wish me luck!

Yelling in the hall at midnight is UNNECISSARY!

Title explanation: The freshman in our hall, yell, run, and slam doors at all hours of the night. I don't want to be "that kid" but I desperately want to tell them to shut it!

This was a really good weekend, but it was waaaay to short. I know there are only three weeks left, but after getting to hang out with my mom again I'm looking forward to getting to see her on a daily basis again. I'm also glad she got to meet some of the new people in my life on Saturday night, it is probably nice for her to have faces to names. Also, speaking of Saturday night, "See How They Run" was awesome! I was completely entertained. The end of Saturday night didn't exactly turn out as planned, but it was fun anyway. X-Men movies are always a great way to pass the time.

Today was pretty average. Rehearsal went well, and was a lot of fun. I literally had tears I was laughing so hard during "Almost Awful Play", it really should be called the "Absolutely Awful Play". Lines are memorized, which is good! I'm really nervous for Friday though =/. Acting has never been my thing, but hopefully I can pull this off.

Sociology test Tuesday means an almost all nighter Monday!

New Outlook

When friendships start to fade from what they once were it's always a gray area. It's hard to figure out where you are in the scheme of things. Friendship obligations change, and at the same time certain obligations are always cemented as long as their is communication. It leads me to often be torn between sending the message "screw you and your superior attitude" and "hey, I'm still trying".

In general, I'm trying to be more positive about life. I have changed my outlook and am trying to change the energy that I'm sending out into the world. May sound a little out there, but it's a page out of my daddy's book, and he has been so much happier lately. Thus far it seems to be effective in making me feel less burdened. I would be lying if I said religion wasn't taking part in this light feeling. I've felt more connected in that respect recently.

On a unnecessary and fun note: I want a diet coke!

Friend Mixers are the best!

Friend mixer was last night, and that was AMAZING! It was a total blast, just a lot of fun all around. Especially catch phrase. All-in-all I would call it a total success. I'm hoping the serious group crush is mutual, cause I for one am smittened. I'm very happy to have such lovely new friends in my life. Our "plan" could have been executed better. I am a little disappointed that didn't work out better, but I'm sure if that is meant to be it will happen. Subtle place settings help, lol.

I've decided that I love that friends want to do what they feel is best for you, but I'm anti using guilt to accomplish that. I wish that I could articulate myself to someone, so that someone would understand, but it's a lost cause (speaking of "lost cause" that is really hard to get across in catch phrase!).

This weekend is going so quickly, but I'm hoping that the week goes quickly too because I want the next weekend to get here! I am so excited for my mom to visit. I start to miss her! She is the greatest lady on this planet.

Personal Victory

I ATE SOUP!

Peanut butter is the most exciting part of my diet

This cold is not conducive to my life! It is ruining it slowly piece by piece. That may be melodramatic, but I'm tired of just eating toast! =(

Register tomorrow, which is always slightly stressful. My schedule is also dominated by theater classes which is odd...

Moms always have a way of making you feel a lot better, but on the down side they always have a way of making you feel a lot worse. I love and hate that about moms. (This observation is actually relevant to life, but I don't feel much like explaining).

Introductory Explanation

The explanation of the most random signature name ever: SKBN32

Basically this is what my friend Matt calls me in mocking of my aim screen name kutestkoala311. He couldn't remember what it was when he was filling out some e-mail thing, and it lead to, "what is your screen name, it's something like shorty koala bitch nasty 32, right?" Since then everything digital has kinda been SKBN32.

Now that that is explained!

I have like a buncha things that need to be done. Like re-writing my script and memorizing all my lines, plus regular homework which means a calc. quiz on Thursday. That is sad-sauce kids, because nothing is getting accomplished due to illness. I'm just hoping that this plague is gone in time for the friend mixer on Friday! i am very very excited for that.